On Embracing The Shadow
Light, how I love
Thou art always welcome in my home.
The space has been
prepared for your most honored presence.
A second beloved
guest has been invited
for the first time
to sit beside you in loving presence.
I await this sacred
moment, the joining
of my two beloveds at the feast of Wholeness.
I welcome both of you at my table.
I have cursed you. Run from you. Denied you.
I have run to your polar
opposite, the Light, and took pleasure only there.
Yet, wholeness, true joy
always eluded me.
I tried to change
you into Light, not embracing the sacredness
deep, dark spaces
for fear of acknowledging their importance to me.
I ran and ran and ran away from you. I ran
only on the spiritual path of Light. I did not heed your call
for acknowledgement and acceptance.
There beside me, within me, all around me, trying to get my attention.
I tried to leave you behind. No where to go. All aspects of my
little self were discouraged.
As I spiral downward once again, I know that
I must change or
I will die. I take a peek at you, Shadow. I run back up to my
beloved Light. You call me. I return to you, Shadow. I go deeper.
A bit of Fear is released.
You are not as scary as I thought you were. I go deeper still.
I choose to go through the impenetrable gates of my negative
feelings. I feel
terrified as I sink into your quicksand of my own negativity.
I am gripped by overwhelming fear
that I shall never return from this place so deep within me.
I see, feel, know, fully experience
the rage at the very
Core of my Being.
I access the deep Fury, Anger, Outrage. I have wasted my life.
Living all my life in the
Big Lie. The Lie that I am separate from God,
from the Whole. That I am not enough. Face to face, I meet the
betrayal of myself deep at the Core of my Being. I am afraid.
Yet I know I must go deeply into this. I want to be whole. I
want to love everything
including you, Shadow. I feel separate. I know I must love you
to be whole. I know that only then can I love all that I am.
I gather my strength. I go deeper. I see a
door. The door that, once opened, will lead me to greater love
of myself and my life than I ever thought possible. I open the
door. I see Light beyond the doorway. Brilliant Light. I pass
through the door. Now, Light embraced, I am willing to go back
into Shadow. So that I can embrace my Shadow
as the Light has embraced me.
Enfolded by Light, I travel deeper into Shadow.
I bring you, Shadow, into the Light Embrace. You and Me and the
Light. We are One. We are Whole. We Are. Love.
I love you, Shadow. I love you, Light. I love the Whole Me.